Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings
for god sakes someone just gimme some love, my bed is roomy and i need a cuddle badly right now
For the first time in my life I genuinely feel lonely, not alone but lonely. I’m not unhappy with my life or my friends or my family, but I am seriously longing for someone to make me feel as though I am wanted and I am important to them. I have always struggled with that throughout my life, always made myself not feel good enough and not worth anything. I’m independent but I straight up miss loving somebody. Where just the thought of them or seeing them gives you butterflies in your stomach, and you are so happy that you have them in your life. I’ve been so badly wronged and I always blame myself for everything, even when I did absolutely nothing wrong, and so I always feel a sense of guilt for myself and it’s so unbelievably frustrating. I’m not saying that I need somebody to make me feel good, but maybe to reassure me that I am doing okay. Because I’ve gone through so much in the past few months and I’m actually proud of myself. I guess I just want someone to remind me to stop being so down on myself and to just smile. I want to feel love and passion and excitement, I know I deserve it.
